In late 2007, I was standing somewhere between the familiar and the Promised Land. Over and over, I heard Spirit encouraging me to apply to the ministerial program at Unity Institute® and Seminary. I finally listened and began preparing for my move from sunny Florida to the Midwest. I was poised and ready.
However, this “big leap of faith” had me alternating between feeling a sense of exhilaration and dread. What I faced was finding my way around a new and larger city, making new friends, going through a rigorous admissions process, and starting a career in ministry. I also felt unrest around the home that I needed to sell, which brought up financial concerns. I began to feel something stir in the pit of my stomach, and it was quite uncomfortable. I was grateful for my deep relationship with Spirit when I heard an inner voice clear as a bell saying to me, “Here I grow again!”
After praying for discernment, I discovered the source of my discomfort. While growing up, our military family moved from state to state, air base to air base, around the world. I had gotten used to moving around, but when I ended up in Tallahassee, Florida, I was tired of moving, ready to stay put for a while, and that is when I made the unconscious decision to “never move again.” My discomfort was telling me that this past experience was in my way.
I remembered the saying that fear is just “False Evidence Appearing Real.” Through a series of mind-set shifts, I was able to see that I was “stuck” when I lived from my limited human awareness. Grounded in my spiritual identity, I allowed the Spirit to support me in bringing my dream into reality. This is how I moved from fear into freedom.
Now, when I face change, I remember the powerful transition I experienced. I have grown in consciousness, so when fearful thoughts arise in my mind, I no longer let them hold me back.
By Rev. Diana Kennedy